Exam mood

Now, less than one week the exam is around the corner.
Today i loss my confident again...haiz half mark to pass..
Still lazying...lazy to start the revision..
To do list:
1. Grab the concept of bending moment and shear stress in geometric
2. Enable myself to do simple volume-for-solid-by-integration -of -function questions
3. Memorize as many things as i can for material and processes stuff
4. Make sure i eat well enough so that my brain can stimulate and memorize well

haha..what else? for cep model...honestly i am dissapointed
Anyway it is very soon enough the hour of final battle comes
Just have to grab everything tight, stressed it in my brain and let go after exam and play HARD~!
To do list:
1. Finish my final fantasy 12 which abadoned almost half year
2. Replay sangoku no musou and basara
3. get a new laptop and psp
4. eat alots
5. sleep alots

Good luck ;p

不能说的秘密

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变 已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见
想像你在身边 才完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签 只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现 这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

*translated*;p

you said giving up a love to a further journey,

so why we have to change the time we ve missed

Your fingertip stops me from saying goodbye

I lost the distance between you and me,

when everytime i am thinking of you

you said giving up a love to a further journey

maybe the destiny determined only the meet of of us without proceed

letting us being together only during the atumn

when it is end it is like the pieces of atumn leaves

hard for me to pick

(lousy translation)

Yup my friends. You should leave it behind to proceed.

What is more important to a person

is what his/her destination of life

what is for me?

actually i like art more than science

i like to create thing emotionally rather than scientific things

like music like drawings

But what to do

to satisfy both my parents and future need

i proceed things opposed to my dream

So i have to choose to proceed without dream

I have to, to a further joutney.

Haiz haiz haiz...

Today is a big day for me
Material test and presentation
I forgot to calculate life time with rpm...!
haiz haiz haiz...others problem i was not confident too
what i was learnt from 2a.m. only 20% came out on the test..!
haiz haiz haiz...(i just go through composite but it worth 10 marks!)

I hate presentation.. i willing to study 100 hundred time of material rather than a presentation..
haiz haiz...i think my slide shitted my talking shitted everything piece of shit
haiz haiz haiz...

But i can have a nice sleep later ;P
EM1 test 2 is day after 2moro again, i have to headache again...haiz

1-11-08

A day after halloween..i wan to trick ppl
Today my family came to kuching...unfortunately indeed i forgot to bring my handphone
So i miss the chance to meet with them
(They say they went for dinner outside....*sob*i only eat cold bread today)
I tell my father that i got -marks in my test this time through phone, his voice heard like very happy...wowo i ve worked very hard this time and i deserved my marks now...so to make him happy again i have to work hard again *sob*
Just came back from modelling-->very tired-->felt like want to faint haha
but haven complete yet*sob*
Haiz....when will my summer come?

Anyone there?

Death

Today is not a good day as i wished for it yesterday

I heard news from home that my dearly old dog died

He is almost 7 to 8 years living with us...it is very long for a dog

I know he will leave us sooner or later

because since the last time i saw him

he is so weak...and sicked

he could not eat solid food anymore, but he drink a lot of water

like he was long for water many days

he used to be a very strong dog

and now he pretend to be

i think he did'nt want us to worry him

"i will be fine..see, i still want to live, as long as i can"

this is what i can feel from him

i really very very proud of him

i wish he can be there forever with us

but life is short enough for us to be together

but my love and care will be forever with you

Boboy...i miss you..

it is raining out there..

i cried

*Today i went for a movie before i heard the sad news

since today is lady day

"accuracy of death/sweet rain"

a japanese movie by takehashi kaneshiro

the storyline is quite unique

and it is a warm life story

i am emotional because i watched it before i heard the news

maybe someone want me to accept 'death is not a scary and sad thing, it is not special afterall'

maybe someone want me to assume Boboy's death is just another journey or conclusion

i sent my deepest wish to Boboy for another good start if there is

"Life is not special like what a sun is, but, it is very, indeed important to us"

Today..

I wake up at 8 morning, and my sister rang the door bell

she broke the lock

then i go to campus from 9 to 8pm

my mom called

i cant remember the last call she gave

long day huh...

doing my math homework

sleepy during classes

eat foochow mee for dinner

now worrying about tons of reports

end of my day today

i still alone until today

the country spirit(drama) finished today

mamak..tamu...i miss u *muack*

suddenly i miss all of my passed away pets

i hope i can see u all afterworld

i wish for a better tomorrow

Why fosssil fuel burner

My first time as blogger..
since i was a kid i heard this stuff many lots of times
now my turn becoming a blogger (sakai)

i read through many blogs
many of them touched about "why they are here in this world and what for"
i also curious about it
bt i found somethin interesting
once in this earth there were more plant than animal
they produced oxygen and consumed carbon dioxyde
as a result
too many oxygen and less CO2
GAIA (universe) created more animal
but there is too much fossil after that ( i forgot what is the disadvantage)
so she create human to burn the fossils
another problems: human pay less respect to environment and too much of human activities
she create viruses again to limit human population
etc...that's what i can recall from what i read from a book
(Gaia hyphothesis: James Lovelock)

I appology for any of the errors i ve made in the phrase above ( after all i am not a pro scientist XD)

Ok, back to me:
since i am physically and mentally exist in this world, i will just be myself be a part of this world, as what a cell does in an organism

who am i?
instead of talking about me, let talk about my interest:
i love cars speed and drift extremely XP (dream cars: mazda rx7 or 8; nissan skyline GT-R; maybe a porche or lamborghini) i know it will forever be a dream

i can draw...i admit i can draw quite well..it has been a long time not touching manga anime stuff

i love cute animal~ cat dog panda tiger lion peguin etc....especially cat!

i cannot speak and write extremely good english sorry for that

i oso don expect someone who will read my blog..i write for fun

its time for the homework elimination! (too lazy to start, sometime too hard to give up if stimulated)