Death

Today is not a good day as i wished for it yesterday

I heard news from home that my dearly old dog died

He is almost 7 to 8 years living with us...it is very long for a dog

I know he will leave us sooner or later

because since the last time i saw him

he is so weak...and sicked

he could not eat solid food anymore, but he drink a lot of water

like he was long for water many days

he used to be a very strong dog

and now he pretend to be

i think he did'nt want us to worry him

"i will be fine..see, i still want to live, as long as i can"

this is what i can feel from him

i really very very proud of him

i wish he can be there forever with us

but life is short enough for us to be together

but my love and care will be forever with you

Boboy...i miss you..

it is raining out there..

i cried

*Today i went for a movie before i heard the sad news

since today is lady day

"accuracy of death/sweet rain"

a japanese movie by takehashi kaneshiro

the storyline is quite unique

and it is a warm life story

i am emotional because i watched it before i heard the news

maybe someone want me to accept 'death is not a scary and sad thing, it is not special afterall'

maybe someone want me to assume Boboy's death is just another journey or conclusion

i sent my deepest wish to Boboy for another good start if there is

"Life is not special like what a sun is, but, it is very, indeed important to us"