Urgh...

Another day another day another day being so damn bored damn stresses damn =(
I hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it and i hate you!

pls ignore me as i went crazy if i don't have anyone to roar at this moment=P

RESET

I would sing this for myself:

Reset by Ayaka Hirahara

Chiriyuku hanabira ga
machi wo irodoru kedo
Saigo no toki na noto
kaze ga oshiete kureta
Kisetsu wa mawaru kara shinpai wa ira nai to
Ano toki yokogitta tsuki ga terashite kureta

Itsumo onaji namida bakari nagashi tsudukeru
Nakusa nakereba kiduka nai kara

Tada hitotsu negai ga kanau no nara
Kinou no jibun ni “Sayounara”
Kawara nai omoi ga aru no naraba
Itsuka sakura no shita de

Ano hi no yakusoku ga iroase nai you ni
Yubi de nazotte miru asa no mabayui hikari
Hitotsu toshite onaji toki wa otozure nai kara
Mou mayowazu ni saki he susumu no
Taisetsu na inori ga todoku you ni
Kyou mo utai tsudukete yuku

Sagashiteta kotae wa kitto aru to
Sotto oshiete kureru

Tada hitotsu negai ga kanau no nara
Toki wo koete todoketai
Kawara nai omoi ga aru no naraba
Itsuka sakura no shita de

Taisetsu na inori ga todoku you ni
Kyou mo utai tsudukete yuku
Sagashiteta kotae wa kono ni aru to
Sotto oshiete kureru

Kanashimi wo Resetto shite

Though the flower petals are falling
They added colors to the sky
The winds forbade
There is no need for worries
For the seasons will return
The radiant moon we watched together
That time beckoned so

The same tears are always shed
We will not realize what is precious until we have lost it

If only one wish, can be fulfilled
I would say “goodbye” to my old self
If there are unchangeable feelings
It would be under the cherry blossom tree

I traced my pinky in the dazzling morning
So the promised made will not be lost
I will never hesitate, I will always move on with my only life
For the time past will not return

For my most cherished prayers to reach you
I shall sing, again today, again tomorrow
You’ll always find the answers you have always seeked
For so, was I was always told

If only one wish, can be fulfilled
I want to deliver this song to you back in time
If there are unchangeable feelings
It would be under the cherry blossom tree

For my most cherished prayers to reach you
I shall sing, again today, again tomorrow
The answers you seek is right here, in your heart
This was, what I was told so

Reset the pain, and all of the sadness…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?gl=JP&hl=ja&v=f1swdaCuam4

If thr is a heaven it would be best if heaven is like the game's world XD

28 July 2009

Helo~
28 July 2009 is a special day..coz i hav to attend two bday party XD
One is my frenz - Ropalin, the lovely birthday princess
and another one is my niece - Jaron one year old big party (She so guai....XD)
I amos late for the dinner after came back from Ropa's party coz I....slept! ahaha
End up i drive 130km/hr good reason for speeding XD
Here are some lovely picture I take:

Ms Ropalin made wishes and blew candles (Strawberry Yogurt Cheese from GingerbreadHouse...Yummy XD)

Food we ordered...actually mine (spaghetti) taste weird bit sweet..and it looks like Mi segera?
And Ropalin n Laura ate...stallion (horse)....zzzzz? swt?
Ms Yong kept looking at french fries XD



Ice blended Irish....super sweet...cant stand @@
I rushed back hometown to attend niece Bday...quite a lots of ppl...and all looks familiar to me
(Coz owes saw in shop???)



Da little baby gal is da one wif red dress...she so adorable XD so guai XD
but opposite to her big bro haha
And den....many ppl said im so tall wahaha (cheated coz i wear high heels)

Recently i took few shoots of baka pets:



Ms Bubu...sneaked to upstair..owes get boomed by family members
She so sticky...owes attented ppl XD poor thing



This zzz fish was......pang sai-ing...ahaha..
clever fish...take out fish food container only..
sure know u gonna feed it...cute XD
It will swim excitedly XDD



Tamu aka sis leg
2 PAI FACE



Mamak aka baby
He kept smelling car?? for amos 1 min?



Mamak emo




KITTYS aka their mom..oAo super cute!!!!!!!!!!look da left kitty eyes one big one small??!! XDDDD



Shy kitty..da only one run when i approaching XD

When ppl bored will...

(9.45am)
In da middle of holiday but no holiday mood

cos no vacation zzzz

Jus now saw frenz' pic. They went to many places.

I am sitting here watching micheal jackson live dvd

and count money and stare at customers

so bored....

I wan upload pictures of pets but damn phone cant upload

recently played game is The dog island:

da game kinda easy..like for kids but i enjoy da storyline and cute graphics of puppies XD

currently playing is Persona 4:

Quite interesting cos rarely play dis kinda of game. Its japanese style RPG.

At first I tot it was detective story but end up becomes digimon???

Cos can summon thing out to fight.

Anyway da storyline is interesting. Is like watching an animation.

Btw da characters design is nice!

I like da guy named Yosuke 5th from da left.

Btw jus now everyone gossiping about a customers lady...cos

she looks exactly (>90%) like da shop worker (Anna)!!!!

Everyone(100%) saying dat!

Too bad I can compared their photo here cos they might sue me in court XD

OMG jus heard dat today water will be cut off from 4pm onwards zzzzz

smelly smelly smelly sumore need go church bak home wil be sticky like hell

(10.48am)

blogging is like tokin to ownself =p nag to ownself

frenz oso nag siennn to me

why everyone feel siennn???

This is true XD

But what shud i do to support u?

Tok? I owes lost topic XD kinda lazy oso =p

Dis morning mom naggy....veli fierce..all ppl moody face

I hope i wont become too naggy when growing older ahaha

Human never satisfied with their current state.

Dats why we are searching better thing.

But im kinda lazy searching for it.

Cos i hav suceed to fullfill sum of my desires

and den i feel it kinda sien oso after having it.

mebe seeking for challenges is da key

ahahaha but when i didnt manage to overcome it

i will become sienn again!

useless XDD

(11.40am)
and....i hate it when...sumone looking me lidat

(esp uncles make me feeel yucked..zzz)

everytime walk pass if noticed will make me feel zzzz

dats why i try not to see ppl all da way

even in skull i oso rarely go noticing ppl surround

mebe cos since kids im so sked to c those eyes

eyes of rejection and denys

make me feel so depressed of myself

and feel wan to hide myself

so everytime watchin drama o movie wif character who like to hide self under hair

i noe their feelings veli well XD like this:

And then mom owes scolddddddd me head low low XDD

btw da pics is a drama called Nobuta no produce

Nice drama and i like it alots!!!

Its about two guys trying to make over a shy gal who is nerd and has no confident.

Den da guy called amano is super cool XDD

swt write too many thing...ahaha spending time here writing nothing

Now im takin k shop and sumtime feel bored dats why im bloggin

ps: ignore broken english XD

(12.34pm)

Trip to Palm Beach

Beach xDD
Tho its H1N1 era but finally mom allowed (cos showing emo face)
Its a windy moody day and it rained when we were on da half way to Sematan
No sunburn but warm sunshine

Nice scenery shooted when sitting on da shelther (wind reli strong dat time)

Carol and me..I show this cos can only see my back wahaha

Looks like da road is owned by us only swt walk so freely in da middle

Frenz inspired me to take this photo

Pretty Rosemary and Naruto XD...I draw it! (high nosed)

Rosemary and Doraemon (Drawn by me)

I like Doraemon XD

Happy Bday Evelyn XD! Rosemary was pretending she drawn dat (She only wrote Evelyn on it)

After staying thr around 3-4 hours, we moved back to Kuching. Rosemary and her gang go for seafood treat, then me and Carol gang go sumwhr else for dinner.

Hidden among living area, this restaurant has small entrance..step inside is a botanical garden.

Cincai shoot...cos tauke and taukenyo sit beside us..

Pretend play msg lidat! haha

I like this drink XD iced blended oreo...if not mistaken

Thin ice on glass cool..but it cos RM7.80...swt

Next time must drink again haha

I order wad.....de voillette sumthin lidat...boneless chicken wif cheese

Errr cos it too creamy I cant relli finish

And thanks to Carol chia me eat Oyster(If not mistaken the thing is called oyster) swt

After dat i ffk family around 4 day lidat stay in Kuching....family quite emo..

Sister told me mom at my back say me 'face too pretty' (actually mean im too ho miang)

but when i jus reach home face guilty i just can c her face smile welcoming back swt

Hahaha

ps: soree broken english

Reborn of blog!

waaa abadoned blog (half-1 year) swt
cos i dono wad to write
and....swt
i've done a thing so far i owes sked
post own pic! ahahahahahaha
da pic reli zzzzzz one
i learn how to shoot pose etc from japanese fashion magazine
ahahaha
feel wan to pose beach shoots but damn usb cant function!
mebe next time haha
today routine: 9am wake up breakdast-->10am online--->1pm lunch (bun: steal from sister)--->1.30pm online again---->5pm buy dinner, walao no thing eat hav to go jln song buy one hour zzzz ----->6pm eat dinner n tv ------>7pm online (carol ask wan go play paintball on wed but later family emo d swt)---->8pm bath one hour ---->9pm online again zzzzz

OTAKU......=_________= HAIH SIEN

Recently...

I feel like to blog today before the day ends.
Today, I go KCH with my mom and sister.
We have to clean up the mess left since CNY.
Before that, we met my mom sister (our Auntie)
Her granddaughter was suffering from kidney problems.
She had to undergo an operation.
They talked in Dayak language, so I couldn't understand the conversation.
I hope she will get well soon, although I am not so close to her.
I think I have only seen her once or twice?
I can't recall.
After came back from the sad place (I don't like hospital, it's reminding me of my grandpa)
We clean up and go to The Spring (because of Chap Goh Meh, many shops were closed, so we can only go to The spring)
Then I am here online to blog.
So boring.
My mom and aunt went back to Serian but not me and my sister.

Tomorrow I want to go shopping ;P
(My angpau is getting skinnier)
I want to buy jeans and SUB's.

Exam mood

Now, less than one week the exam is around the corner.
Today i loss my confident again...haiz half mark to pass..
Still lazying...lazy to start the revision..
To do list:
1. Grab the concept of bending moment and shear stress in geometric
2. Enable myself to do simple volume-for-solid-by-integration -of -function questions
3. Memorize as many things as i can for material and processes stuff
4. Make sure i eat well enough so that my brain can stimulate and memorize well

haha..what else? for cep model...honestly i am dissapointed
Anyway it is very soon enough the hour of final battle comes
Just have to grab everything tight, stressed it in my brain and let go after exam and play HARD~!
To do list:
1. Finish my final fantasy 12 which abadoned almost half year
2. Replay sangoku no musou and basara
3. get a new laptop and psp
4. eat alots
5. sleep alots

Good luck ;p

不能说的秘密

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
又何必去改变 已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见
想像你在身边 才完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远
或许命运的签 只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现 这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

*translated*;p

you said giving up a love to a further journey,

so why we have to change the time we ve missed

Your fingertip stops me from saying goodbye

I lost the distance between you and me,

when everytime i am thinking of you

you said giving up a love to a further journey

maybe the destiny determined only the meet of of us without proceed

letting us being together only during the atumn

when it is end it is like the pieces of atumn leaves

hard for me to pick

(lousy translation)

Yup my friends. You should leave it behind to proceed.

What is more important to a person

is what his/her destination of life

what is for me?

actually i like art more than science

i like to create thing emotionally rather than scientific things

like music like drawings

But what to do

to satisfy both my parents and future need

i proceed things opposed to my dream

So i have to choose to proceed without dream

I have to, to a further joutney.

Haiz haiz haiz...

Today is a big day for me
Material test and presentation
I forgot to calculate life time with rpm...!
haiz haiz haiz...others problem i was not confident too
what i was learnt from 2a.m. only 20% came out on the test..!
haiz haiz haiz...(i just go through composite but it worth 10 marks!)

I hate presentation.. i willing to study 100 hundred time of material rather than a presentation..
haiz haiz...i think my slide shitted my talking shitted everything piece of shit
haiz haiz haiz...

But i can have a nice sleep later ;P
EM1 test 2 is day after 2moro again, i have to headache again...haiz

1-11-08

A day after halloween..i wan to trick ppl
Today my family came to kuching...unfortunately indeed i forgot to bring my handphone
So i miss the chance to meet with them
(They say they went for dinner outside....*sob*i only eat cold bread today)
I tell my father that i got -marks in my test this time through phone, his voice heard like very happy...wowo i ve worked very hard this time and i deserved my marks now...so to make him happy again i have to work hard again *sob*
Just came back from modelling-->very tired-->felt like want to faint haha
but haven complete yet*sob*
Haiz....when will my summer come?

Anyone there?

Death

Today is not a good day as i wished for it yesterday

I heard news from home that my dearly old dog died

He is almost 7 to 8 years living with us...it is very long for a dog

I know he will leave us sooner or later

because since the last time i saw him

he is so weak...and sicked

he could not eat solid food anymore, but he drink a lot of water

like he was long for water many days

he used to be a very strong dog

and now he pretend to be

i think he did'nt want us to worry him

"i will be fine..see, i still want to live, as long as i can"

this is what i can feel from him

i really very very proud of him

i wish he can be there forever with us

but life is short enough for us to be together

but my love and care will be forever with you

Boboy...i miss you..

it is raining out there..

i cried

*Today i went for a movie before i heard the sad news

since today is lady day

"accuracy of death/sweet rain"

a japanese movie by takehashi kaneshiro

the storyline is quite unique

and it is a warm life story

i am emotional because i watched it before i heard the news

maybe someone want me to accept 'death is not a scary and sad thing, it is not special afterall'

maybe someone want me to assume Boboy's death is just another journey or conclusion

i sent my deepest wish to Boboy for another good start if there is

"Life is not special like what a sun is, but, it is very, indeed important to us"

Today..

I wake up at 8 morning, and my sister rang the door bell

she broke the lock

then i go to campus from 9 to 8pm

my mom called

i cant remember the last call she gave

long day huh...

doing my math homework

sleepy during classes

eat foochow mee for dinner

now worrying about tons of reports

end of my day today

i still alone until today

the country spirit(drama) finished today

mamak..tamu...i miss u *muack*

suddenly i miss all of my passed away pets

i hope i can see u all afterworld

i wish for a better tomorrow

Why fosssil fuel burner

My first time as blogger..
since i was a kid i heard this stuff many lots of times
now my turn becoming a blogger (sakai)

i read through many blogs
many of them touched about "why they are here in this world and what for"
i also curious about it
bt i found somethin interesting
once in this earth there were more plant than animal
they produced oxygen and consumed carbon dioxyde
as a result
too many oxygen and less CO2
GAIA (universe) created more animal
but there is too much fossil after that ( i forgot what is the disadvantage)
so she create human to burn the fossils
another problems: human pay less respect to environment and too much of human activities
she create viruses again to limit human population
etc...that's what i can recall from what i read from a book
(Gaia hyphothesis: James Lovelock)

I appology for any of the errors i ve made in the phrase above ( after all i am not a pro scientist XD)

Ok, back to me:
since i am physically and mentally exist in this world, i will just be myself be a part of this world, as what a cell does in an organism

who am i?
instead of talking about me, let talk about my interest:
i love cars speed and drift extremely XP (dream cars: mazda rx7 or 8; nissan skyline GT-R; maybe a porche or lamborghini) i know it will forever be a dream

i can draw...i admit i can draw quite well..it has been a long time not touching manga anime stuff

i love cute animal~ cat dog panda tiger lion peguin etc....especially cat!

i cannot speak and write extremely good english sorry for that

i oso don expect someone who will read my blog..i write for fun

its time for the homework elimination! (too lazy to start, sometime too hard to give up if stimulated)